I posted a couple of my original songs on SoundCloud. Take a listen if you’d like. I appreciate your feedback. These are both “works in progress,” kinda like me.
When I thought I was going to die of melanoma, I found myself mourning the person I could have been. I kept asking God, “What significant thing am I supposed to do? I know I was put here for a purpose. Show it to me, before it’s too late!”
One of my favorite TV shows at the time was “Joan of Arcadia,” about a teenager who saw God in the form of different people. He usually had a task for her to blindly oblige to, despite her protests. The episode that awakened me was one in which Joan wanted “a thing,” a thing that made her special. Her boyfriend had art. Her brother had science. Everyone she knew seemed to be good at something. And she wanted that special thing that made her stand out.
God told her to work on the yearbook, so she took that as “This is it! This is my THING! I’m going to excel at it. People will notice me! I’ll be Joan of the photographer!” Her stint at the yearbook turned out to be one disappointment after another. She was assigned to taking out the trash.
Then, in the trash, she found a poem that her friend wrote. She made copies of it and littered the campus with it, so that her friend’s poem could be read by everyone. The poem was anonymously written, and her deed was anonymously performed. But it showed her friend how much she cared for her, and it enlightened the whole school.
That, as it turned out, was her thing… a small deed for that moment. I realized that I no longer had to strive for “a thing,” or regret that I never had one. I realized that living purposefully in each moment, appreciating others, showing them love, speaking truth into their lives, just being there when needed by them… that is the essence of everyone’s “big thing.” Everyone’s big thing is a lot of little things. It’s living in the moment. Living each and every moment as a Christ follower.
Our obscurity is our biggest blessing, and can be a multitude of blessings to the world.
I am fairly certain that Samson of the book of Judges was a short and scrawny fella. Why else would the Philistines insist on finding out where his strength came from? If he were a big, muscular guy, there would be no “secret” to his powerful might.
Of course, we know the secret was the Spirit of God. Samson knew it too. He “stirred himself up” before fighting. And even after Delilah cut his hair, he thought that all he had to do was stir up his spirit, and he’d have all the mojo he needed.
Samson had been dedicated to God since his birth, and he made an oath to God about never cutting his hair. He took for granted that when he needed God to “show up,” all he had to do was “show up” himself! He didn’t even have to keep himself holy or righteous. He just showed up, because he knew that God never fails.
Even when Samson made a stupid mistake (okay, Samson made lots of stupid mistakes, but when he made his fatal mistake….) and the spirit of God left him, he still performed his duty. Unfortunately, he was a victim of his own strength because of the circumstances he created for himself. But God accomplished his will through Samson.
So, let’s say you’re Samson. I know, I know…. You haven’t made nearly as many mistakes, but bear with me. Say that from the time you were very young, you dedicated yourself to God to be used by him. Throughout your life, you accomplished things that you knew were because God was with you. Your life was saved when you boldly came against an armed robber without fear. You beat up a large group of bullies who were terrorizing a young boy. You knew that all you had to do was step out in defense of people who depended on you, and God would enable you to win.
Feels pretty good, doesn’t it? Imagining yourself as a hero… that nothing evil can stand against you… that it doesn’t really matter what you do, because God will always win. The only requirement is that you show up… and you keep your oath.
Now I ask you: Do you have any reason to believe that that is NOT the case right now in your life? I mean, Biblically speaking… is there any reason to think that God will not do what He says he will do? Samson believed it, even though he was a screw-up. Why should we believe any less, when we have so much more reason to believe? Samson’s power was transient. Ours is constant. Ours is a permanent indwelling of the Holy Spirit.
Ours is a promise that God will never leave nor forsake us, that He will be with us until the end of the age. That’s the “lo” part of the great commission. But the first part is the “go” part. We’re actually supposed to DO something with the powerful might that dwells in us.
Each of us is a “scrawny fella” like Samson who, despite our failings, can do the will of God simply by “showing up.” Because wherever you go, there you are. And there is the Spirit of God.
It’s been nearly a year since I posted on this blog, but that doesn’t mean I haven’t been doing things! The most significant thing I have done is become a roster artist with Incubator Creative Group. They are now my partners in music ministry, and I am so excited! I’m very blessed to have found Incubator, and I’m looking forward to using my music and other creative gifts to inspire and motivate my ministry family, as well as speak Truth into their lives.
With Incubator’s help, I will be able to turn my music ministry into a full-time vocation rather than a hobby. Incubator is famous for “doing small in a big way,” which is right up my alley! I don’t want stardom or a busy travel schedule. But I DO want to use my gifts to the glory of God. Using Incubator’s entrepreneurial model, I will be able to do MORE of the things I do best, as well as stretch myself out of my comfort zone in order to serve Christ more fully.
Incubator will help me “stay on task” when it comes to creating “ministry content” for my ministry family. And along the way, they will help me improve my skills and abilities. Most importantly, they are helping me do the “heart” work that is necessary to reach out to a broken world… one person at a time.
If you’d like to know more about my ministry adventure, I’d love to fill you in! Send me an e-mail at jackiedoss at gmail.com.
I want to thank my dear, dear friends at Westwind Christian Church in Keller, TX for welcoming me so warmly on December 12. By offering me your attention and love, you’ve enabled me to come a step closer to a ministry that I have been wanting to develop for so long… public speaking combined with praise and worship. Thank you so much for being there for me during my worst trials …and my great joys.
Because I can’t post videos on this blog, I will post a link to Sunday’s “message in song.” The video is in three parts, so there are three links below, but you can link to the second and third from the first one.